An old Lakota saying rings true and gives pause to think: “Memory is like riding a trail at night with a lighted torch. The torch casts its light only so far, and beyond that is the darkness.” At times I’ve tried reaching back to my earliest memories, but the light weakens the farther back I look, and then becomes total darkness. There was that time when my Grandpa bought me a bottle of pop at the Venlo store which I spilled (he wouldn’t buy a second), the time a rooster harassed me to the point where I swung a stick and ended his aggressive behavior, the time I found an egg and put it in my pocket. It promptly broke. Those rural farm scenes were the setting for my first memories.
The older I grow the more sharply defined they become. The folks built a new farmstead about a half mile down the road. On the house Dad installed a heavy front door scavenged from some place in town. The image etched in its window stays with me yet, an elk trumpeting his presence in a mountain meadow. Looking into and through to those mountain peaks let me dream about going there. Many years later when I did hunt elk in the Wind River Mountains of Wyoming I realized its folly, because at the end of the day I discovered the front sight on my rifle missing.
The recent death of an old neighbor brought back the memory of the first time someone paid me for working. Her husband drove in the yard late one afternoon and asked my parents if I could come help him rake alfalfa hay. I was probably 12 or 13, had driven tractor for several years already, so off we went. None of the facts are important, except for the payoff. When I finished, he drove me back home, dug in his pocket, pulled three shiny silver dollars out, and dropped them jingling in my hand.
We’ve heard of cases where people suffering amnesia cannot remember their past. There are cases, too, where some people remember everything. Politicians sworn to tell the truth in hearings often suffer convenient memory lapses where they just can’t recall. And finally there are those who never let facts get in the way of a good story, what they can’t remember they just make up. Mark Twain said he never let truth get in the way of a good story. He might not have, but a problem arises when people of stature start fibbing, thereby altering reality. Gullible people start believing it, and the misinformation goes into their memories and spreads outward.
Many good stories told from the viewpoint of a narrator who reaches into his memory bank make for reading pleasure. Open the pages to Norman Maclean’s short novel A River Runs Through It to find a good example. He was over 70 years old when he wrote about family incidents occurring 50 or more years before. Autobiographical, it is the story of a stern Presbyterian minister and his two sons. One, Maclean himself, went on to become a college professor, the other died from a violent beating he received over a gambling argument.
As for the movie of the same title, they didn’t let facts get in the way of a good story. In the beautiful mountain setting, Robert Redford’s narrative voice carries us along with a script that only loosely follows the book. Redford did spend time with Maclean developing a rapport and trying to get a feel for his intentions when he wrote it. It went on to become a great movie in its own right. Unfortunately, when Maclean died at the age of 87, he had not had a chance to see it. He wrote from memory, and Redford took the memories and made them a Hollywood story. Both are entertaining.